30.1.07

"ya sure. i'll be there. i'll try and grab some friends."
haiz... a promise waiting to be broken. still trying to find people to join the nite cycling this coming friday.
during maths lec, tan ban pin suddenly fa pi qi, it was abit shocking.
afternoon, was hanging ard at the forum, coincidentally shunjie was there preparing for his performance, overall, the whole thing was organised by CAC voices, as part of Fiesta la vie. Kl happen to be there as well.
probably wondering why im talking in disconnected sentences. spent a couple of hours preparing for tml's ctw lesson, all these gp-like stuff is realli taxing to my mind, so right now, i just don't want to care about what good sentence structures etc. my enggrrrish nt that de pwerful de okie? lolx^^*

29.1.07

i was suppose to be studying this morning but my mind kind of drifted away every now and then whenever i tried to focus on the differential equations. i was pondering over my life again.

Recently, one of my friends said that ive become more matured. To me, there wasn't so much of a compliment, because so much that i wanted to change for the better, i feel that im still as childish as ever. i realised that there are alot of problems scattered across my life, until it has become a mine field. And probably because of this constant effort to avoid the dangerous spots, treading across this mine field simply tires me out.

Maybi that's the reason why ive been feeling so restless and tired no matter how much i tried to rest, hoping to feel more refreshed. If i have to live up to the expectation of being a matured 21, i guess i should start by clearing the mines.

28.1.07

An entire morning of sai-gang today at the temple. k la , not very nice to call it sai-gang. but we had to "work" on muddy ground so it was abit sian-diao... and sunday morning is like how precious lo... kk no more complains.
was abit bored so..
den felt even more bored staring at the blinking "loading 0%" after clicking each of the 40 icons.. den..

um.. oh well, at least the hamster is cute.

27.1.07

"could you guys jus restaint that enthusiasm abit, and settle down."

"please give me just one one particle of ur attention."

...

"... .. shut up."

haha, i was watching the webcast for the maths lectures i missed. omg the angmoh lecturer was super hilarious, i couldn't stop laughing...

i found a replacement for tan ban pin.

today we touched on cosh and sinh, and i realised tt they remind me of someone... dawn.
went for a run at the Heart for Art charity run. i guess no one realli did run for charity, if you were to grab a fellow on the track and ask him where the charity fund goes to, he probably wouldn't noe. 10 rounds round the Nus track. 2 buck per round.

havnt been exercising for lik... ... .. i cant rmb.

halfway through, i thot i saw a ray of white light.

26.1.07

i stepped...on xiao qiang. yman was shocked....
infrastructure in singapore.. with neon lighting.



(Video). it feels like the enlarged version of iphone.so cool. um... dun really learn anything from this field trip.

presenting to you...

the Illusionist!!!

25.1.07

Mastering physics. Statics online. Statics i-beam tutorial. Singapore Studies field trip exercise. readings for CTW. Gem readings and grp discussion.

oh my tian... im so sleepy >_<....

24.1.07

And i thought that using OHP was the most primitive mode of teaching, until today , when i entered the classroom and saw this chubby guy in berms and slippers, trying to stick mahjong papers all round the room. Yup, that was my Physics tutor for this sem.. and i suspect that he came from my Hello Panda friend's family.. Surprisingly, ctw today was engaging... got my position paper group mates... one of whom happens to be from 5sir scouts..

"so class, tell me, what did i say tt you have to take note when writing the introduction to your critique?"

"um.. you said no but but but..."

today is a not-bad day ^^*

23.1.07

today is no-lunch-break day... went for the movie screening of The Illusionist at gv vivo city, organised by the Community Chest after their appreciation speech and prize-giving, with tsinli,edi and some of of his RH friens and some of my classmates .. um ya, we went there for the food and free movie so while everyone else were in formal wear, we appeared out of nowhere in berms and sandals. felt abit guilty for skipping tan ban pin's lec.. hm... ss field trip's this fri afternoon and it so happened tt ah-tan's one hr lec was in the way... bo bian, hav to sacfrice his lec again--> this wk is no-ah-tan-week.

tired. more slack than ever. incorrigible.
bro's in Shen Yang (don't noe how u spell tt), somewhere in China, to audit one of companies there.

One of the 3 pathetic shots he took and sent us tonight. maybi he's too bz ba.

22.1.07

倔强 (by MayDay)

当 我和世界不一样 那就让我不一样

坚持对我来说 就是以刚克刚
我 如果对自己不行 如果对自己说谎
即使别人原谅 我也不能原谅

最美的愿望 一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神 在我活的地方

我和我最后的倔强 握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂 就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强 我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂 就这一次 我和我的倔强
(就这一次 让我大声唱啦啦啦...)

对 爱我的人别紧张 我的固执很善良
我的手越肮髒 眼神越是发光
你 不在乎我的过往 看到了我的翅膀
你说过被火烧过才能出现凤凰

逆风的方向 更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡 只怕自己投降


Stop what you are doing. Turn up the volume. N'joi. This song is dedicated to the unhappy people around me^^* Life is a roller coaster. njoi the ride.*jia you. *

21.1.07

i feel broken, crippled by emotions.
i don't want to care anymore.

20.1.07

3hrs of blading at Esplanade Underground, then we kena chased away by the police, cos by right we weren't allowed to skateboard there and apparently they cant tell the difference.

At first i decided to leave early, i was telling OCS, "hey, i think im going off."

"huh, really ah. you fell uncomfortable issit?"
right.
"or you feel abit left out?"
right.
"haha, or your skills lousy, you feel xian diao?"
right again.
OCS was the only one in the club i don't feel uncomfortable hanging around with. ha. but i guess after a sem, he's still the only one.

19.1.07

it's weird how pple can hate you when they don't even seem to care. All of a sudden, people think it's freakin' funny to pick on me for no f**kin' reason. I don't even understand what the hell is going on. If you think im some mr nice guy who can just take any comments thrown at me, im sorry hor, im not.
i have enough problems, thanks.

18.1.07

blogging from yman's room. nearing 3 hrs of doing nothing at PGP. an hr away from band pract~~~

17.1.07

absence of a decent soul.
dead for quite some time.
shut my mind from the rest of the world.
finding meaningless words that rhyme.

words that speak of an emotion, worse than
when one is comsumed by boredom,
the existence of nothingness probably
is the cause of this weird syndrome.

physics lecture this morning was sho boring, i was simply bored to tears... seriously i yawned till tears came to my eyes... slept in lt 5 this morning, then slept for an hour after lunch at oilver cove, den another hour of sleep at the student lounge before sectionals... someone pls slap me.

"All snarks are farks.
Some zarks are snarks.
Can we conclude that some zarks are farks?"..... .. .... .. wtf.

im seriously need to polish up my reasoning skills.

16.1.07

reminds me of hppi three friends..

15.1.07

Biyi said that it was realli said.. mm.. hen sad ma? ha maybi bcos of the part where he tried to flap his puny arms ba.. n tt stupid backgrd music...

presenting... the kiwi.

i should have been a gemini. Two sides. Two personalities. one is emotional, oblivious to whatever is happening around him, cuddles in his cute little fantasy world where complications and implications don't exist. To him, everything is a possibility. No that's not courage, it's over-reliance on blind faith. The other is simply down-to-earth, pessimistic, feels that fear is the most rational emotion one should possess. forever consumed by overwhelming sense of fear. vulnerable.

don't give me a choice. cause i'd end up with internal conflicts which i could never resolve. i hate to feel pressurised annd already im starting to feel stressed out.

i want to be free. let me be on my own and free.

14.1.07

today i caught my younger bro saying,"huh, san-ge you3 gong1 ke4 de meh?"..

woa seh, dang1 ge ge de, kena suan.

think it's time for me to wake up. aiyo, lab start tml, my free day bo liao le...

13.1.07

One of my favourite from Guess^3. Their mo4-qi4 is mei2 hua4 suo1 de loh.


5 years or even more.

supposed to meet the rest at 330 today at E Coast mac for the skating thing. i was an hr late, couldn't find them, couldn't contact ocs and haiping. it might have been a wasted trip if i didn't run into another group of familiar faces. at first i didn't quite notice this group of people staring at me until shihan, gave that stunned look, and blurt out,"zhicheng?!?!..." ... omg, it was shihan! and a bunch of other commonwealthians.. it me as well bcos i've always wondered where she went after grad. it felt abit weird bcos today i talked to some commonwealthians whom i never spoken to before in my entire 4 zhi-bi4/zhi-bei years in css, but the feeling i got today was so... qing1 qie4... and i was looking at yi ching at eye level! (tho she's still shorter than me without the blades) 5 years, or even more, considering we were sec 1-2 classmates. ha, how time flies, and it felt like nothing much changed.

oh ya, i realised that my club mates changed the venue to esplanade. last min decision i suppose. watever la...

i feel that trips to East Coast are getting more and more meaningless.

11.1.07

lemon-flavoured fish with curry.
black coffee with water.

loved the rain. Just hated not being able to run in it.

Today, nothing went right.

im holding on without a reason.

10.1.07

this afternoon was spent at the forum reading, listening to soothing music over the hustle from bazaar, all in attempt to avoid gg home early and end up sleeping the whole afternoon away in the couch. Having said that, time spent at the forum wasn't productive in anyway. tried to mug, and realised how ridiculous it was to start studying on the second day of school. Therefore running in Jiaren today came as realli pleasant surprise.end up talking kok for over an hour. ..

9.1.07

Today has made me confront my life, many aspects which i, in the past, was afraid to confront.

7.1.07

second last day of hols to be exact, since my lectures only start on tues. kind of feeling that the hols are ending abit too abruptly, and im not really ready for school la.. still like a kid, i don't deny that i dread school and all the interactions. Seminar-style, oh my goodness, why did i ever choose that module. Critical thinking& Writing? what's tt? another gp-like module? comprehension? i don't like it seriously... But i noe holidays can't last forever, probably the reason why i tried sleep the last couple of days away, trying to convinced myself that ive slacked enough. ha, realli immature..

met up jieren & john for dinner at jp, ended up toking kok and hogging the table at mos burger for 3 hrs.. it helped to dissipate abit of that uncomfortable feeling. They said that og normally don't last more that one and a half years. i don't wish the believe that.

Some time alone tml i guess. Then school.

5.1.07

yes.... finally... muhahaha.
~~~
"Follow the instruction. Do them quick. Don't let anything in. Or out."
haha... watched Night at the Museum with kl and Caiting, dam hilarious, laughed till i cried... another comedy built on a story that revolves around the bonding between father and son. And Phoebe was right, they had a marvellous soundtrack..
For the past couple of days, i havent been around for dinner at home, reaching home only late at night when everyone's already asleep.. maybi that's why i feel that this period of hols is starting to tire me out... dinner with family tonight was good... guess this Sunday is reserved for me and myself. A nice nap after lunch in the warm Sunday afternoon'd sound nice ^^*
Eww!! got bug!!

*SMACK*

kk, bo liao.

haiz... lecture for 7 hours on tuesdays, dun even have time for lunch... *nice*..

4.1.07

在这虚假的世界里,
只有虚假的人,
才是最真实的。

一种说不出的寂寞...

3.1.07

had a swim w john this morn at ntu's swimming pool, managed to sneak in. den slept on the mrt all the way, before meetin my friends for k.

~~~
k at first i wanted to take Science of Music, then i realised the minimum bidding point jumped from 1 to 343 in just one morning, kk highly demanded module, expected, so give up...

then i considered jap, 5 hrs of tutorials plus 2 hrs of lec, i think initially i overestimated myself and expected myself to be able to handle that high level of commitment, but on second thought, give up...

then i considered taking Gene & Society, then i realised that BioE students are not allow to choose that mod. den i considered Physical Qns from Everyday life, recommeded by xy, the i found out that it's not for Engin students..
i ended up bidding for Inquiry& Reasoning, and an SS mod. Not good at language-based subjects, so not really looking forward to them. If the former examines alot into logic and requires a strong reasoning skill, im pretty much screwed le la...
got this from edi. hm.. somehow i cant remember taking this photo.

2.1.07

omg, L died, but not the way i expected it to be.. so xiao1 sa3, but ending so sad... Watched Death Note 2 with gaia.

Tired.
ha, i really wanted to place a period on the last day of 2006 and then start a new chapter for the coming one.

Somehow i couldn't. for some reasons they just seemed to be realli connected to each other. Also the reason why, initially i was abit reluctant to blog about what im thankful for in the preceding year and my new year resolutions for 2007. Then i've been blog-hopping and i thought it wasn't really nice to let this transition quietly go by. so here i am with my thank-you speech. sort of.

first to my css gang. Really sorry that i couldn't join you guys for countdown which i felt was really impt to me, cos it marked another yr of friendship. When kl asked why did i pao qi ni men, ha, i knew it was meant to be a joke. But it stuck me. Jus to let u guys noe, wo bu hui pao qi ni men de. you are the lao-peng-yous whom i can fall upon, and give me this feeling that even if the whole world abandons me, i still have u guys. kk i noe it's abit mushy, but i dun do this often so bear with it ^^*

nx, is to my army friends. though now we go on separate ways, the tough times, on and off the field, will not be forgotten. Thanks for accompanying me through this 2 yr-plus process of growing up.

finally, my dear gaia. To be frank i was really really reluctant to join O wk, given my anti-social attitude. But you guys proved that it wasn't a mistake and probably the best decision i've ever made. uni life, though tough, you guys made it really enjoyable and meaningful for me. What can i do without you guys? ha, once again (i noe you guys like to say this)... Gaia, you rock!

new resolutions never work for me, but if i had to come up with one, i guess i'd have only one on my list:

New Year Resolution for 2007
1) to really connect with with the people around me.
Once again, Happy New Year. wish you guys can continue walking with me through 2007 ^^*

1.1.07

Day 1 (Osaka, Japan)
Touch down!.landed at Kansei airport. It's the famous airport built on the man-made island that is sinking every single day.. temperature was ard 10 degress plus minus... so the weather was considered realli pleasant. at the airport. a realli unique christmas tree covered with LED lightings.
First stop, Universal Studio, Japan. one realli cool video taken by bro.(haha, there's backgrd music as wel, turn up the vol^^)

Cute Ticket. ha Peter Pan xia^^* got the magical feel le mahz?

oh this shop offers tattoing services as well, the temporary kind.
the slot machines (dunno what call it) are all super kawaii one.
this isnt a real statue, it's a real person! The couple at Orchard Rd with the struggling dove have a really long way to go to be as pro as this lady.. haha she always disturb tourist who wished to take photo with her.

A street just outside the themepark...
Mac in Japan. Even the fastfood looks different from that back home.
the entrance beckons.

Day 1 (cont'd)

Oh it was the Hello Kitty's bday celebration, some sort of parade... she celebrates a couple of times in a day, must be really old ba, haha... it looked like nus's Rag & Flag.. Oh it's their 5th anniversary as well..


simulator ride! with spiderman speaking jap... so hilarious.. but it was one of the more exciting ones...oh we took the Shrek 4D simulator ride which some of you guys might have heard it before.. the donkey sneezes and you feel actually water being sprayed onto you, you can actually feel something brush your legs when the "spiders" appear, stuf lik tt.. oh ya. shreks noes jap, do does the gingerbread man... imagine elmo saying " komichiwa.."
Oh there's this Waterworld stunt show. it was spectacular, didn't really snap any photos for tt one, but i realise that a couple of people uploaded the whole show on youtube, you shd take a look.. all the explosives and the acrobatic stuntmen.. den der's Jaw's, boat ride & fake sharks... the lady driving the boat was rather cute, especially when she was shooting the fake sharks with a fake shotgun... waiting for food... zhen4 zhong1 ramen for lunch... mmmm.... plastic food... appetizing plastic food.Somewhere in the vicinty, there's this cao kawaii de Takoyaki (octupus ball) museum!! came across this keychain with spiderman holding to a Takoyaki on a stick... then there's another shop selling kaleidescopes of all shape and sizes.. despite the language barrier, the lady was desperatedly trying to tell us not to touch the displays (everythin was super ex), but we still go woa~ woa~ woa~

ha, this was really happenin. all the smoke wasn't part of any act.. but we all kapo so tried to take a video of it.

mmm... what to drink?...

chistmas lightings... mm cant remember the name of this street..

another one.

dinner was at Shabu-Shabu... reminds me of the song.. nice hot steamboat. Stay over at Ramada hotel.. they are really thoughtful. there was 2 pillows, each with a different textured side, hard, soft, with-beads kind.. oh and in the bathrm, they have a heater behind the mirror so that the rectanglar section of the mirror in front of the basin doesn't become foggy after your bath.. and, ya the toilet seat is heated... with a bulit-in washlet.

oh over here, it gets dark as early as 4.30 pm.

Day 2 (Nara, Japan)

we are now at Nara, Japan. ha anw, whenever i mention a different place, we probably took a couple of hrs on bus to reach there..
breakfast was at...

um.. abit vulgar for a restaurant's name. haha but my appetite was still der.

Todaiji Temple. Situated in the deer park. Why was it called the deer park? cos of the many deers that were allowed to roam freely. Oh, they bow the way Japs do, mm... either they were trained to do so or simply, their heads were heavy... i guess the photo couldnt effective capture the grandeur of the temple. but trust me, it was huge.oh there, one of em.
another favourite spot for tourist to take pix.oh in this temple there's a small hole in this huge pillar, and it is believed that one 'll become smarter if he managed to crawl through. haha, true or not, my results nx sem will tell ^^* nah, this isn't holy water. it's a different version of a water cooler. pure water, all natural. you can actually find a couple of these at every temple here in Japan. sweet ^^*
kimono fashion show. at this place where we had our lunch. ha we all agreed that the red one was the best. After lunch, we headed for Kyoto.
Upslope. upslope. upslope. from the tour guide, "i know there are alot of shops around. Please don't get distracted and follow me." impossible. they attract us like bees to honey.
Another temple. The thing bout this temple was that people come here to ask everything bout love. oh that little rock was called the "Love Stone". This rock is called the "Love-fortune-telling" stone. If you walk safety from this stone to the other with ur eyes closed. if once, your wish will be granted soon. If you can't, it'll be long before your love is realised...." um...didn't wanna risk.wishes written on wooden boards..






Day 2 (cont'd) bro. bro. me. bro.

another family pix.

yuan.
another pix. the place was huge. and they are trying to get people to norminate this temple to be one of the 7 Wonders of the World. um.. isn't there 7 already? or 8? *shrug* ... maybi the man made one. oops. up till this pt, i realised tt the pix are abit jumbled up. cos kind of consolidated them from 3 different cams. this this was lunch again. tempura.
notice the flower printed on the white lantern? 16 petals represent the emperor.
bullet train! according to bro, not the fastest tho. wanna get a feel?...
haha felt so stupid as we stood in a row trying to get a video of it. missed a couple of time when my cam didn't load fast enough.

Maribara station ---> Gifu-Hashima station. Another stupid thing was that we alighted the tour bus to take the train to next station where we would wait for our tour bus to catch up with us. Miraculously, we din have to wait for more 5 min. hm... think it was due to the waiting time.