understatements. every word or phrases that i try to come up with to describe how im feeling right now are just understatements. sometimes when emotions go haywire, you feel like a complete wreck, you thought it's just a transient phase and the adverse effects don't quite seem to matter because of that. but when it starts to get so frequent, you start to ask yourself," Is it just me or is everyone just either mean or that they don't even give a dam about whether their actions or words may affect the other party?". well, maybe it's just me. this unstable state of my mind is be blamed.

actually, seriously, have you asked yourself, how well do you understand a person, to hurt him or her?

im sorry if i appear to push the blame, for my unhappiness, to the world. i am upset. but it's just transient, so it doesn't matter.

phase 1 of reforestation... my plan is to create a forest in my room...

water water... scorpio is a water sign.

Pangya!!! went to the golf range, located at some hidden remote area near my home... what i learnt today: Golf is NOT easy... my first few attempts were... whoop.. miss... whoop... miss... and the ball flew anywhere but straight... like pool, impt thing is: act pro and everythn'll be fine.bro incorporating softball swinging techniques into golf.

far far away....

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beat the red light twice today.. reckless driver rox.. not tt i wan to curse myself but i tink it's a matter of time b4 i... oh well.

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yea. hamhamz got real hamhams liao. upload pix nx time.

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com crashed again. after spending over hundred to get the hard drive replace. dammit. what's wrong with it lo...

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so hot today... had to wear my cenozoic singlet.

i give you... Whatever. Whatever?!?! ... Whatever! woohoo! Whatever!

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dam disappointed, got a C grade for my Changing landscapes.

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Onimusha, Dawn of Dreams, tonight. One of the most anticipated game movies... hope it's good.

~Dreams in Flight~

gui3 ah!!!... gui... -_-,kk looks lik clubbin' lolx.
oh, the spot light casted a v distinct shadow on the swiss hotel building.. v cool.

look lik maggots..

"V" !!
"L"!!

work, den gym w jasper, den opening of s'pore arts festival ! went with kl and khoonz, tgt with some of his pharmacy friends... k im nt v arty-farty but, oh well it's free!! free fireworks display!! they had some pretty cool stunts with all the visual effects and stuff.. but overall it didn't have a theme apparently and was abit messy... hm..




the human hamster wheel!!... performers from a famous spanish group...





oh it's suspended from a crane then it went overhead!!! cos there were these pple who guided the wheel with ropes as it swept across the padang.. then these pple were pushing pple aside and were gg, "Make way! Make way! Make way!"... so -____-

strings of maggots being hoisted into air.... hmm actually they look more like chromosomes... aiyo, they din say what each act is about.. we could only guess...

some cmi stunts...



fireworks...

hm, ive seen better but cos it's really close so it wasnt too bad..

watched pirates... mm abit too chim for me to understand... other than that it wasn't too bad.
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ive this tendency to distant myself from people who doesn't seem to care. sometimes i thot i'd manage to leave footsteps behind, in people's lives. i thot i really did. but apparently, for so many times, i realise that i didn't matter.

wheneva u hv the slightest thot of avoiding me, u have hurt me.

i watching prison break and msning den...

bro: eh? u are online right?... how come i nudge you, u din hear anything...

me: ...

bro: eh wait a minute.. .. did u block me?

me: ... (oh shit.)

"... It differs from other branches of engineering in that there is no particular subject matter or set of techniques that belong exclusively to bioengineering." ... k that explains why we are taking all the jiabalang modules...

today, i mounted the curb.. i almost bua dao the bus at the merging lanes.. -_-

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gym~ yea im over 55kg!! >.<

went night safari with pk !! and her cousin ("kk") and her cousin's friend (no, nt the zebra, the one taking the pix)... alot of -____- moments...

k i look kiddish.

animal show was quite lame... cos there's more "human" wolves around, making the stupid "woooo...." sound... the show started with this magnificant white-coated wolf, supposed to howl at the "cliff" to give that impression like the scene in Pocahontas... but it kept dashing in and out, making short constipated howls -__-... the "mc" was bitchy... oh and her assistants did that classic v-pose^^ the animals are abit lethargic tonight... the cheeteh refused to climb the tree, the wolf couldn't howl properly, the merkeets REFUSED to dump the soft drink can into the bin... -___- dotz lo...

gents, behind aquarium...ulu ulu restaurant^^

this one is umz...okie, skip, next.

oh guess who i saw? clarabelle!! of all places... and of all people, as well, kk let's not b mean... she working' der, part-time... we managed to hitch the tram ride back to the entrance... the guide was speaking in such inappropriate seductive tone lo... the way she describe the animals.. it feels lik im listening to some porn-nish stuf.. once, she said "the 3 female elephants seem to be having some intimate bonding session.".. ?!?! the 3 elephants are stoning... oh, she pronounced "tigers" as "thai gayz" , "Singapore" as "Singa pool"... towards the end she tried to show her more "lit." side, said something like:

"maybe... until the last animal is dead.." (silence)

"until the last drop of water is gone..." (silence)

"until the last tree is cut..." (silence again)

"only then we'll realise that..."

....

"money.. can't be eaten."

diaozzzz... -________-"'

auntie.

went to view the showroom at some condo at the lake side area... woa stunned... feels like a preview of heaven... feels like Water World... loved that lo...

If everything is created by an omnipotent being, like what most religions believe, the impression given to me is that, everything is fixed, perhaps predetermined. Everything, the kind of person you are, the life the time that you have, everything. Except one, freewill - the freedom of choice. i don't know if it's assuring to know to that from all the things that we possess, at least there's still one aspect of life that we are put in charged of. There's no right or wrong, your actions bring implications, you reap what you sow, cause and effect... all says the same thing. like a transaction, neutral.

But sometimes we don't even know what we are doing, sometimes we have no clue of where we are heading, is it okie then to let us have the freedom to choose and risk making a wrong decision? so many questions to life, can never be answered. Is there a reason as to why we are here? Is there really a reason for one's existence? To go with the flow, to follow blindly, is that what is expected of us? it's weird why people say everything happens for a reason, cos alot of times we can't come up with a reason.... Mere coincidence, consequence of one's mistake.. makes me feel that there might not be a valid reason for everything.

God is capable of creating us, what then are we capable of?

mini handgun from the 1-dollar slot machine (or wateva u call it.)

complete with bullets and reloadable magazine cartridge.

went night swimming w khoonz @NUS... mm... well, considering 2 laps in one-and-a-half hours, maybi it wasnt so much of swimming.. nua-ing ba lolx... hai, currently no plans to hit the beach, this would do, for the time being ba... water therapy...

there're still lessons going on at night.. freaky'

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my com suffered another relapse.. dun tink it'd make it this time.. guess it's headin sim lim tml...

big bro was featured in channel news asia! he showed me this video clip on the website and he was saying, "nah, nah here... tt's me lo.." um.. ya he's actually this..speck, in the back ground, tt's not bigger than the cursor itself...

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coolest auntie eva... simsy once recommended.. i'd nth better to do so decided to check it out, so i typed " www.laozabo.blogspot.com ", den it says, "no no no... you got the wrong url. To visit my blog, click here..."

-____- ...

anw, the actual one's www.laozhabor.blogspot.com ... if u r as bo liao as me, go check it out... it's quite um impressive. the auntie rox lo >.<

not myself today.

more pix!! tks junlin!...

omg, shiyun... unglam.. no wonder she din post on her blog .. xp
"im a cyborg, but tt's okay"
omg. i look abit haggard here..^^greener pastures ^^zhen zi ---> "1114"? (junhao's scar).. xp

gym~~~

written on the gym facilites, "innovative paramount strength systems.".. hm..

watched 28 Weeks Later... blehz... should hav consulted the reviews before deciding to watch that lame show... gory, gory and more gory. no plot, no story, just gory.

Agency still hasn't contact me, should i just sit by and wait? i tink i really need to find sth to do, before i die of boredom...

too much of lazin' around can realli be tiring de lo... dun lik rainie dayz...

more pix, from pk!!... >.< percentage similarity: 90%

kissing fishes! at the Cathay building...

On the Wings of the Dove... my Mother's-Day gift to ma....

handcrafted in Scotland... each one is unique lo.. for the past 2 yrs, and even before that actually, we've been letting Mothers' Day pass by without actually even mentioning it.. i thot, initially, that this year would be no different, until, a friend told me... that, tho it may be awkward to start, i should take the initiative to make that difference...

bro's cute gift... um. same theme la. lolx.

courtesy of tim... presentin' ..a series of ungRam pix...

Ncik, Alison, mua...
Quote of the day: "You sux."... lolx
woa... hideous... no la, kk it was kinda cute.
whoop.
i pei4 fu2 ta...

jennifer singing... how cool lo...